Saturday, April 17, 2010

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aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh! I don't know what's wrong with me :( I can't focus!!! I have a million-page lab report to finish and a project to write up! Nothing is making sense, and I'm worried!
I'm taking a break.

No. I'm taking another break.

I went shopping today in the afternoon to buy some summer clothes. It's not so bad being on your own. I don't like it when people get mad at me :( I don't like it when I can't decide. The shopping experience today was little more than just spending money. I went downtown on my own around 1. I don't know why, but I've always been scared to go downtown on my own. But I went today out of my deep desire for a new wardrobe. Scared in the beginning, but slowly started to ease in and like the independence. I started with Payless and ended at H&M. After about 2 hours of looking around, I ended up with a reallly cool light jacket (it's still not summer in Chicago), a pair of sandals, and a summer top :) It's not much, but I felt a sense of achievement. Having almost never shopped for myself, it was making me a little nervous to look around, think about the prices, and choose. But it was rewarding.

I feel sometimes that life's the same way. Each small step is an achievement in achieving a goal much larger. It may not be evident now, but it all adds up on this scale that we can't see. And before we know it, we'll be at a different stage of life, wondering whatever happened to that image of me __ many years ago.

I don't want to go anywhere on Monday, not class not lab :( I just want to stay home and sleeep sleeep sleeeep

But I'm excited about my new jacket!! I'll wake up early just to wear it to lab :)

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