Moved into my new place. It's beautiful and I have a view of the whole city. I couldn't have asked for more. Every evening I lie down and watch the sky and the clouds shift slowly. The yellow-orange, hot sun losing its glow and settling down for the day. It's gorgeous. I wish I could live here forever for the view it has and sometimes for the peace it gives me to just stare into the sky.
When I was younger, I used to sit in my bedroom by the window, door closed, I would put on my headphones and listen to that song, and watch the sun set all evening. I had a dream once too that I was in a beautiful meadow. It stretched out from all directions into the vastness of the space. It just never ended. It was sunny and slightly windy. I had a radio playing in the back and I was just sitting on the grass admiring the view.
I find that dependence is a weakness everyone has and can't do without. It's like one of those things...those chocolate chip and fudge cookies which are SO delicious, but so bad for you. It's what builds relationships. And the lack or too much, of which can ruin relationships. We depend on what we see, what we eat. We depend on who we are with and without, what we do and want to do, and so many more things. Because they all determine how we essentially feel.
I was thinking today about the dynamic of good and evil. The yin-yang. The black and white. The high and low. Every extreme. It seems that they both must exist for the world to be in balance. And they must CO-exist for minds to be in balance.
I thought about the complexities of the human mind. Humans are so intelligent, yet some natural mysteries, that have existed since our creation, have never been understood. Some simple things in life that are never solved, because they can never be figured out. Some continual but fruitless efforts. Yet they continue and they must, because that seems to be-the law of nature.
What a tiring world.
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